01/10/2021
𝐒𝐄𝐋𝐅-𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 💝
I sometimes think I was reborn. I know how completely strange that sounds but after I cheated death, things were different. When I think back to how I used to treat myself versus how the "reborn" Danielle treats herself, it's like looking at two different people. I think this second chance at life changed a lot of my perspective.
I used to be an adrenaline ju**ie, always pushing the limits. I've realized that I acted the way I did was because I didn't value my life highly. I value and respect myself a lot more than I used to. And I can say that for a lot of the behaviors I engaged in, be it drinking ungodly amounts of alcohol, jumping off cliffs, surfing out back during stormy conditions or being with people who treated me without respect.
One of my friends recently told me they don't like to meditate because it brings up thoughts of their ex-boyfriend. I do think this is a big reason people are lenient to meditate. Not because they'll think of their ex but it can bring up unwanted thoughts that we'd rather shove to the side and distract ourselves so we don't deal with them. Sitting with yourself in quiet isn't always an easy thing to do. Meditation put a spotlight on that inner voice. We've been through quite a lot together and I've been able to befriend her.
Now, when I'm going through something, instead of running from myself, I can go inward and seek the help or answer I need within. Repairing my relationship with myself has been one of the most rewarding, grounding, yet brilliant experiences I've ever gone through.
How did I do it? Instead of running from myself, I searched for the quietness, I sat with myself, I went to therapy, I journaled.
You hear of all these things consistently online because they work.
Self love isn't taking a bath so you can post it on your instagram feed, it isn't treating yourself to that new designer handbag, it's sitting and getting close to your inner being. It's doing the work that you deserve to do on yourself.
Self love is learning about your physical, emotional and mental health on another level so you can work in line with them instead of against them.
Keep growing and loving ✨