09/11/2025
Happy Birthday, little one
I see you smiling, happily sipping from your cup, not knowing that soon those bright eyes will be filled with sadness. That the ground beneath your feet will disappear, as you lose your mother’s embrace without understanding why.�The separation from your mother, the loss of her unconditional love, took away your sense of safety, the place where you felt most protected, the place you once called home.
She was alive, yet unreachable. At five years old, you couldn’t possibly understand the complexity and heaviness of life’s circumstances. And so, that separation and loneliness led you to the most painful conclusion: that you must have been left because you weren’t worthy of love.
To test this belief, you set out in search of the holy grail: the lost love, but even more, the lost sense of worth. You thought you’d find love and value if you gave yours away without limits. If you met everyone’s expectations, your antennas always turned outward, trying to see what more you had to do to win love and deserve it. The truth is that love and affirmation were always around you, from many people, from other mothers, from personal joys and successes. But it was never enough. It was never “that love.”
Until you met me, the one who told you: if you can give love, it means you already have it. That it came from somewhere. It arrived with your birth, from your mother, the same mother whom destiny took away you from her, even though she loved you endlessly. Then love came from many others you met along the way, people who warmed your heart and reminded you that the world isn’t such a cruel place.
But the most important person you met on this journey was me, the mother you missed, the friend full of understanding, and who will never turn her back on you. And since then we’ve been inseparable, me, grown-up Ida, and you, inner child Ida who is the same, unchanged like from the picture, with the same needs and emotions, but now with love found within us. And the heart that beats for both of us is called love, home, and peace.
What have I taught you?�That you must allow yourself to make mistakes, and also to learn from them. That your decisions shape your future, and you must stand behind them with full responsibility. That you don’t choose the cards you’re dealt but you can decide how to play them.�That injustice exists and will continue to exist. And no one is coming to fix it for you, nor will the world bend to your wishes. But with the resources made from your knowledge and experience, built into your choices, you will stop being a victim and become the creator of your own future.�That the meaning of life is life itself, like sunny mornings, red sunsets, full moon nights, and above all people. The people who make you feel alive.�That you must allow yourself to enjoy, to dream, and to nurture yourself.
And what is my birthday wish for you?�Be not just smart, but more wise.�Let your heart walk arm in arm with your mind.�Love yourself unconditionally, so the heart warmed by love can beat for others, too.�To forgive yourself for the time you missed and you could have spent differently.
For the wrong choices that seemed right back then.
For not seeing when someone you loved needed your help, because in that moment you were busy saving yourself. And I am here, to share joy with you, to cry with you, to fight beside you, and to walk the path and the time we’ve been given in this world, together.
