07/08/2022
Body dysmorphia! I never really knew what it meant or that I had it, until i saw these photos.
These came up in memories from 2 years ago, they look normal but I remember how I felt taking these photos, I'm too pudgy, I need to get a flatter stomach, I hate my arm flab, why are my thighs always so big and the worst thought that others will think i look fat!
Now when i look back i think omg you were so skinny! You were also extremely fit and could have built amazing muscle definition here.
But I couldn't see this then all I saw was negative parts, i was so obsessed with losing weight and getting a photo that didnt fat or trying to get my "good" side.
I'm glad these memories come up because it reminds me that if i think i look disgusting or fat i probably dont!!!
I'm now trying to give myself positive comments and enjoy what my body can do, especially after having two kids.
