14/03/2026
For a long time I jokingly called myself the “logistics manager” of my life… but if I’m honest, there was a period where that role felt pretty soul-crushing.
I’ve always been a creative person. I love experiences, connection, ideas, art, conversation, music, movement — the spaces where people come alive. But somewhere along the way life became more about keeping everything running than actually living it.
School mornings, schedules, responsibilities, finances, parenting, work, emotional labour… I slowly stepped into the role of the one who held everything together. And the more I managed the logistics, the less space there seemed to be for creativity and play.
Recently I had a bit of a realisation while reflecting on parenting Mason.
When he was little we naturally did a lot of things that built connection and joy — adventures, silly games, exploring, creating, just being together. As school started and life got busier, I noticed our time together slowly shifted into instructions and routines… the “get ready”, “pack up”, “we’re late” kind of interactions.
What I realised is that both kids and adults need dopamine from many different sources to feel balanced and regulated — movement, novelty, mastery, connection, creativity. When life gets heavy on responsibility, those sources can quietly disappear and we all end up running on empty.
The beautiful thing about awareness is that it brings compassion.
I can now see that over the years I stepped into the logistics role because it was what the family needed at the time. And I can also see that everyone in the system was doing the best they could with the tools they had. There’s no blame in that — just growth.
This season of life is inviting something different.
More creativity.
More connection.
More play.
More spaces where regulation happens naturally through movement, expression and shared experiences.
For Mason that looks like making sure we prioritise one-on-one connection, adventure and creativity so his brain learns there are many ways to feel good and regulated beyond devices.
For me it looks like stepping back into my creative energy — art, sound, conversation, community spaces and the healing work I love so much.
Sometimes life brings big changes not because something went wrong, but because we’ve grown enough to see new patterns and choose differently.
And that feels like a really beautiful place to begin again.