29/09/2024
Well it’s been a week now of staring at your face in our little cocoon. The house was ready just in time! I told you you could come when we have power and running water and you took it very literally! Your Dad was still digging the waste water trench while I was in early labour! Then you came into the world in the most perfect way, it was exactly the birth I wished for. I ignored everyone that doubted me because you told me to trust. Trust deeply in my body, in you, that you would show me the way, I held a deep memory in our primal ability to birth naturally and totally undisturbed. I avoided learning anything and let my instinct, you and my body take over. It was hard there were so many lessons throughout the journey, but it was absolutely beautiful, it was exactly the right of passage I needed to become your mother. It was just me and your Dad in the house he built for us while I grew you. Oh and Laszlo... who slept through the whole thing and tried to join me in the pool at the end. Thanks Leon Metzker for showing me that not only can you build me a container and bring my crazy ideas to fruition but you can hold me in the container of the divine masculine when it matters the most. Even though I wanted to do it totally alone, you were my rock grounding me and reminding me to breathe. You caught our daughter and put her straight onto my chest. It was pure transcendental magic. [cont…]