25/10/2022
This time last year I would never have imagined I would sell up and give away most of my belongings, put most of the rest on a backloading removals truck, and then everything else including myself into my i20 and drive myself to Cairns!
But here I am! Arrived in Cairns 2 months ago after taking 10 days to drive. Across the Nullarbor, up through South Australia and New South Wales, into Queensland through Goondawindi, to the coast, and then bananas and cane fields in the rain to Cairns.
I had a pretty scary near head on miss on day 2 on the Nullarbor which took me a while to process as I went through all the 'what ifs?' What if the truck driver who was being overtaken by a red car heading straight for me, had sped up instead of slowing down? What if the red car hadn't managed to make it past the truck and pull in before we hit? What if my brakes hadn't worked so well? What if the mechanic who checked my car before I left hadn't put new brake pads in? What if I'd panicked and made a bad decision about braking and steering?
Totally get the PTSD response even more now, because for a while I could feel myself going into fight/flight going round tricky bends (and there are lots around here) and if I wanted to overtake someone myself, my hands would be gripping the steering wheel super tight and I would be holding my breath until I was back safe in my lane.
Lucky for me there are some great healers here and after one of my sessions I realised I was no longer stressed, my driving confidence was not only back, but slightly better than it was before I left Perth.
I am so sad to leave my clients in Perth and no longer see them in person. I still do offer distance sessions, and its great to talk with people over the phone or via zoom!
Am busy doing a lot of 'What ifs' now about what happens next for me - where to have a clinic space, how to get to know people here, how to become one of the healers here in Cairns...
Watch this space!