03/04/2026
I’ve not been showing up the way I’d like lately. As in the past twelve+ months have been rocky in relation to my output, fragments of my old self scattered amongst the bare minimum I’ve been able to achieve.
I’d be lying if I said there weren’t moments of ‘maybe I’m not meant to be doing this’ as another week goes by without me sending that love note to my VIPs (shout out to last weeks mail though) or posting on here (god forbid my follower count goes down 😉).
But my inner leader knows better.
She knows that we have negativity bias and tend to focus on what’s NOT working, what we’re NOT doing, where we’re “falling short”, rather than all the epic things we ARE doing.
She reminds me of all the ways I AM showing up.
She reminds me this is a season, not a sentence.
She reminds me of the ways I am practicing what I preach and embodying the wisdom I’ve spent years gathering and integrating.
She reminds me of all the invisible steps I’m taking to build the future I want (offline), steps that while exciting, are a-lot amongst full time employment, working in my business part time and navigating one of the most intense identity shifts of my life — perimenopause.
She reminds me of the power and potential of these quiet introspective seasons and of the purpose they serve in the bigger picture.
Because when I zoom out, I see I’m exactly where I’m meant to be (albeit I’d love to be there without my new friend hot flushes).
I see all the dots joining like the most spectacular watercolour, the offerings being clarified, the focus refining, readying itself for me to dive in when the time is right.
So I keep trusting.
I forgive myself for my current capacity and I gift myself the love and compassion I so readily offer to others. I am doing my best and that’s enough.
If you too feel like you’re not showing up as you usually would right now, may this be your reminder too — just because your progress doesn’t look like it used to, it doesn’t mean you’re not moving forward.
Sometimes the most important “work” you do is invisible.
Expand your expectations, shift your perspective, listen and be patient.
It IS happening.
[postcards from life and my garden lately]