17/10/2025
Witchcraft psychics tarot cards made me sick, really really sick!!
For my whole adult as long as i can remember I've always been fascinated by all the spiritual woo woo stuff.
I'm not sure why? Its just who I am I guess??
I think i hoped there was something greater than me, I hoped that something might be able to help me heal because I was a very broken soul.
I'd experienced so much loneliness, sadness and abuse as a young child. Emotional suffering was honestly 💔 all I could feel.
My parents loved me but I couldn't feel it.
I felt rejected by them and the world.
I felt I wasn't ok something was wrong with me I was alone, hopeless and broken.
This was how I felt on the inside for so many years!
The reality is that there are thousands of people out there that feel the same way.
Looking for healing.. seeker's.
Just like me looking for love and healing in all the wrong places.
For years I looked for love and attention from men, this started when I was very young 4 years old when s*xual abuse started from there it was one man after another... as a child I was kissing young boys, as a teen it went to everything else and it was a string of men one after the other.
Looking for love, looking for validation, looking for acceptance. Wanting to be told i was enough, a good person.
But actually what happened was the opposite. I got told I wasn't good enough, I was told I was selfish, unkind, my body was an object of desire instead a vessel for love.
I became more broken 💔 😢 😪 much more broken my head became filled with lies about who I was. I believed the bulls #$it that casual s*x was good for you it was women's empowerment. SUCH A LIE!
THE MORE RELATIONSHIPS I HAD THE MORE BROKEN I BECAME.
So you might start to see why i believed in magic. I needed a MIRACLE to set me free from this.
I started to my healing journey at 23 when I studied naturopathy. I remember thinking maybe the magic of herbal medicine would be able to heal me. I was wrong. I learnt the truth of how herbs work. its not by magic but they are very powerful (another story for another day).
So after college I became a seeker of all things healing and magic.. I tried it all. energy healing, reiki, yoga, meditation, tarot cards, psychics, ta**ra, women's embodiment practices, psychedellic medicines; plant medicines etc... pretty much everything.
Over time my own intuitive abilities began to grow i became aware that i was an empath could feel other people emotions and pain plus many other things. I thought this was cool. I was special had a unique power/talent. But I was still not healed. I could help others but I was still trapped in chains, lies and blind to the truth.
So after 20 years of seeking I still wasn't fully healed... I definitely was better a lot better.. but still sought validation form men, still that root of sickness that was planted at such a young age was there.
It's like I couldn't escape it. It was my life's curse. It was like an addiction I couldn't shake no mater what I did.
All the magic and healing couldn't fix it.
Until one day I heard a voice in my head that said maybe Jesus has a message for me?
I was like wtf!??
Then I heard maybe I should go to church double wtf!!?
No way, I swore I would never step into a church again when I was 14 and I hadn't!
But I went ... and holly was i shocked to find what I did. I cried and cried and cried but felt better afterwards. I started to experience peace. Short cut forward I got healed from the thing that I'd been seeking healing from for my whole life in about 4 hours!
How it happened... got baptised, accepted Jesus into my heart and body. The people there prayed for me for a couple of hours I cried sobbed shook sometimes even screamed as I was delivered from the spritual sickness that had been living in me for 40 ish years!
The next day I was free, I no longer felt that need to seek validation from men. What was there was a deep sense of peace, love and self respect and honour. I was finally healed.
The new age had not healed me it had actually made me more and more sick.
I was an endless journey of seeking.. a carrot dancing in front never to catch... the gold and the end of the rainbow 🌈. A complete mirage of lies, and pretend healing that promised the world but never fully delivered.
Who did deliver his promise was Jesus!
This is why I'm now a Christian ✝️ when something this big happens in your life - trust me you take note.
But I'm not the type of Christian that most people think. Not the pope, not forced to do boring things, not judgmental, not condemning, not hating on others. None of that BS!
I'm now the type that seeks love understanding and peace... that works in the spiritual world to fight against the darkness of this world and to help other heal.
If there's one thing I know it's healing.
My whole life has been about it.
It still is.. this is my purpose... I believe I've been through emotional hell (hell on earth) to find emotional peace (peace on earth).
To help others do the same. You cant really lead understand or help others that well if you haven't been there. I've been there and back!!
And now Jesus now leads the way. As mad as that sounds coming from me ... never in a million years did i think I say that.
But what I can say is this Jesus. is the most powerful healer out there. He was when he walked the earth and he still is today!!
Helefreakingjah us all i can say!
Freedom is glorious 🙌
Xx
Hannah