28/08/2021
💫 My life-changing journey, part 3.
🏕️ I eventually found this work-away project in the south of Spain, a self-sustaining farm where people come from all over the world to work the farm and land for accommodations. It was an organic farm somewhere in the middle of nowhere, right next to a nature reserve. A place miles away from the nearest village. The pictures of the place looked great, I made arrangements to go there the second of August. I was to stay there for the rest of that Summer, and, hopefully, finding myself somewhere along the way.
🗾 I had never travelled independently in my life. In fact, I only went on vacation outside of Belgium for about five times before. Still, somehow, there was a sense of complete calmness inside. I knew everything was going to be fine. Weirdly, I experienced barely any anxiety or stress at all when I was planning how to make my way to the farm. It was as if I had indeed been expecting this to happen for a long time, subconsciously. I can't really explain that feeling.
💥 Fast forward and I'm seated in the airplane on the tarmac at Brussels Airport, ready to fly off to Malaga. I was beginning to experience a flash of anxiety... What on Earth am I actually doing? Is this really my soul's quest or a delusional fantasy my mind has been playing on me? Breathe. Calm down. Use Reiki to balance yourself, I thought. I put on some soothing music, and started doing Reiki on myself for the remainder of the flight, helping me relax and become centered within myself.
🛫 Lift off. It was a surreal experience to ascend into the air, into the great unknown. Not having anyone there with me on the plane. Knowing, that, from this point on, there will be no one there with me to support me but myself. It was the eeriest realization, but also, a genuinely exciting one.
✈️ I was actually in the air. There was no going back now. This was it. I looked outside of my window view to the surface, smiling to the old me down there somewhere.
🌅 I was ready to find the true me, on my own volition. That in and of itself was overwhelmingly a profound spiritual experience.