11/13/2020
A N C E S T R A L W O U N D S
"To become as revered and Self-esteemed as matristic women have been, patriarchal women must look at ourselves differently. We must learn to see remarkable essence where we have been trained to see "nothing special.""
- D Wilshire
Here is my young mother and my Memere. A photo I had never seen until recently and I was struck by how beautiful they both were. And not because I've never viewed them as beautiful, to the contrary, but because I wondered if they saw the same?
I have been deep in reading and learning and it is no coincidence that I'm studying the Goddess amidst a time of patriarchal bu****it. I feel lucky to have been raised by a woman who I always saw as remarkable. Not once have I ever questioned that every choice she made and move she executed was done with a power that made me feel proud to be a girl/woman. I am certain her personal view would be different from my own childhood remembering, for I'm now a mother too and the choices I need to make and see through can at times be terrifyingly difficult - and I dont always feel powerful in those moments. I assume she may have had a similar experience. But, I know it's in me to heal my perosnal and ancestral wounds, and effect change for my children and their future.
I will ask, but I wonder how my mother viewed my memere as a child? Surely she saw her remarkable essence too, as I saw it in her. I believe every child is born with that inate knowing.
So then, when and where does the "nothing special" take over? Where does the shame, littleness and passing off replace the remarkable women that we are?
I read this week in my book The Wild Feminine that we hold five generations in our personal wombspace. FIVE! So I have two more generations of women's daily emotions, experiences and knowing, who aren't shown here, living within my cellular womb.
I have much to learn and explore... I best go pour a cup of tea and call my Momma.
If you feel similar, I suggest you do the same.
