11/04/2025
Do we actually put thought into ? Do we see people for what they have faced in life? Are we willing to allow people the to make their own ? Over the last 10 weeks I have had many an upheaval, I’m feeling as though the last 14 years since my has not happened. I’m fighting yet another infection, awaiting my port catheter surgery next Wednesday. I have been in my chair full time for the first time in many many years; choices? I’m remarkably tired of choices. Decisions, and uncomfortable conversations. What is right? I don’t know! Wait and see; other options? These are questions that run through my head steadily every moment when I sit in silence and view my past, my present, and my future. I’m a drum be**er of be where my hands are, I’m honestly finding this very difficult to master lately. Please any advise would be greatly appreciated. It’s in this picture of the double button doors that set it off today, it’s knowing that this is what I’ll be searching for when I finally allow myself to see myself as I actually am versus what I used to be…