10/24/2024
Accepting What Is, Is The Way Through
Whew. When I close my eyes I see googly eyes all over the place staring back at me. It feels creepy.
I just jumped off an "AI for business" call after being there for about 3 minutes. The last thing I heard was "This makes your eyes look like they are looking deep into yours, even if you are reading off of a teleprompter or looking around" "Wow!" "Amazing!" "I need this" was how the responses went in the chat. My body's response? Nope. Just nope. "I'm in the wrong place," I could hear myself thinking, and promptly jumped off.
(Pic: This is me, no filter, no AI, just me actually looking into your eyes. Thank you for being here)
The most important lesson from my awakening journey = truth. It all starts there. Truth sets you free. Accepting what is, is the way through, and gets you to what you desire. How do I make friends with AI and receive its incredible benefits while staying true to my core values? I am reminded... moment by moment, I must continue to lean i, tune into my body, and trust it to lead me to my true path.
Is this why my body broke down with fatigue for years? Did I keep making decisions that fast-tracked my way to outcomes without listening to my body messages? Is this why 4 years ago, in 2020, I had to face a dark hidden truth: I desired an end to my life. "You have everything!" I remember my dad saying to me. It's true. I did "have it all" on paper, but then why do I feel this way? I started listening with loving curiosity. I was deeply misaligned. And fulfilment comes from alignment to values...but how do you even know your values when you have CPTSD from a controlling upbringing that told you who you were, what to do, what was right, what was wrong? I didn't know my truth. (which may have been a necessary survival mechanism for desperate immigrants learning how to live in a new world). Shaming, which was a fast solution to stop behaviour short term, also destroyed my worth as a highly sensitive person.
I see now, that it was inevitable: This life I live right now. And I'm grateful to see more truth, to embrace more truth, and finally, to live more true to myself. I love growing nutrient-dense food for me and my family. I love letting go of the "absolutes" of right and wrong and playing in the freedom of embracing everything as having a place. Gardening, baking pies, chasing northern lights, supporting my girls' extracurriculars (so fun, Brooke's first time at Model UN that happened to be held at Winston Churchill, where her dad graduated from), this is where I belong, and what will make me want to stay.
Making my eyes do something they're not actually doing? It may be a small thing, but for now, it's a "nuh uh," that's not my path, not my values, and not how I stay fulfilled and alive in the long run.
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