11/06/2025
There are lessons life tries to teach us gentlyโฆ
and then there are the ones it carves so deeply into your nervous system,
you never forget the feeling.
In my teens and early twenties, I was always chasing the new -
the thrill, the noise, the validation.
Home was just a pit stop.
My grandpa was sick with cancer. Fragile, but stable.
Iโd spent a week by his sideโฆ but everyone was back in town for another semester of school and so I chose to go out, even thought a large part me felt called to stay.
The next morning, he was still here - but the part of him that knew me,
that sang with me, that met my eyes - his warmth, his prescence, his laugh, was gone.
I missed his last good day.
That moment marked me.
It taught me that time is sacred.
That connection is medicine.
And that healing isnโt just what we do -
itโs who we breathe with, who softens our heart,
who our body feels safe around.
Your nervous system always whispers first.
Sometimes through longing. Sometimes through loss.
If youโre feeling the pull to slow down,
to choose meaning over motion - listen.
Your body already knows what matters.g
