07/10/2024
**re-share from my personal page**
I’ve been told I’m “a lot”, a lot. Sometimes, it comes lovingly to my face, other times not-so-lovingly behind my back.
I read a quote this morning that said, “I’m not really interested in managing other people’s reactions to me being myself” & it hit home. Hard.
If I told you hearing disapproval or dislike in who I am, doesn’t bother me, I’d be lying. I don’t think we’ll ever grow out of the desire to be “liked”. But I work on that inner child wound, every day.
The reality is, I’m never gonna fit into the box, trust me I’ve tried. And over the years, I’ve come to terms with, I don’t WANT to fit into the box.
And me being me, I’m going to inevitably overwhelm or offend you from time to time. I have no filter, it’s just the way I’m wired. Things come at me so fast, and I feel everything so deeply. But I need you to know, I never have ill intentions. Offending someone is never my intent. And when I do, you need to call me out. (I actually liked being called out, *when it’s done lovingly. I like to know the areas I need improvement, and I can’t always see them.)
I’m not perfect, I’ll never be perfect. But I’m ME. All-encompassing. Full throttle. I voice my opinion, I hardly shut up and I love, deeply.
But ultimately, I’m not going to teach people how to love me, that’s not my duty. And I don’t expect you or anyone to love me, that’s not your duty.
All I ask is you take me as I am, and leave me if you can’t.
No, I’m not everyone’s cup of tea. But if I weren’t so me, the people who love me wouldn’t love me as deeply as they do. And if I weren’t so me, I wouldn’t love you so deeply in return— for being yourself, for telling your truth.
As always, if you read this far I freakin’ adore you. Big time. Full throttle. 💛
