09/22/2025
During my first pregnancy, I couldn't go to a concert due to complications. I physically couldn't make the show that I had waited months to go to.
It's the earliest and most vivid memory I have of the losses we experience as new parents. We sometimes have to sacrifice our needs and wants for our kids and I would do it over again to keep us both safe. However, despite it being 9 years ago, I sometimes can still feel the sting of regret, knowing what I missed.
I've seen this band 4 times since then, but the venues grew bigger (like by 10x) and I was never brave or lucky enough to get pit tickets.
Last night felt like a coming home. Not a re-do, as it doesn't make up for what was missed, but a return to a part of myself.
Raising young families can feel like living in the trenches. As someone at the stage of climbing out, please keep going. There will be your versions of home waiting for when you do.
To my clients who are fellow TOP fans: feel free to bring the lore into sessions if we are doing EMDR reprocessing. I love how well the lore fits into parts work and healing.