09/15/2019
Practicing some self care right now as I’m contemplating and reflecting on the past couple weeks while soaking my tired body from all the rigorous commuting and constant muscle engagement with our newly learned Body mechanics!!
A few things are popping up for me as we get deeper into the program at a quicker rate I feel. Tests are happening and it seems like such a whirlwind and it’s only been since starting Sept 3!!
I feel as if I’ve been on autopilot and barely holding on...fearful of so many things like wondering if I can really do this at my age, and how long will my body last if I did this full time? It’s extremely physical (so I should be in damn good shape once I’m done!! 🤞🏼😂) humour is my way of deflecting...back to focus!
I’m worried about all the loans, bills and expenses with no income coming in other than child support and child tax, which is almost equal to OAS benefit, I’m scared.
I’m scared about failure, I’m scared about burn out and I’m scared about not having what I need to stay above water. It’s a major shifting point in my life and in a completely new direction!
However, it feels right! I know I’m on my path, it’s just how much do I want to let fear take over!?
Fear can harm us on many different levels if we choose to let it. Learning how to stay grounded is key to moving through it with stability and ease.
I’m choosing to take sometime tonight to reflect on the past couple of weeks to manifest my next 5 months!
I will turn this fear around to manifest what I need in order to maintain the stability and Health and Wellness of my Mental, Emotional, Physical and Spiritual Bodies.
In 2005, I realized I had lost myself. I didn’t know who I was. What I was going through at the time tore my world apart and life no longer mattered, that is until I had a moment of Faith guide me in the right direction and make a commitment to myself! And that commitment was to do what is possible to find myself again.
I wanted my second chance in life to really get to know myself to learn how to the best version of myself so that my children will always remember me at my best, and not for my worst.
The benefits of this program once I’m done in the next 4 months, is that I will emerge that much closer to the best version of myself! And to have learned new skills to not only work on my own goals but to help others with theirs!
Im taking a leap of faith with arms and eyes wide open, knowing my hopes and dreams and passions are supported by the universe, loved ones and friends. ✨🙏🏻✨❤️
My Mantra for the week:
“I AM Supported, I AM Loved, I AM Smart, I AM Strong, I AM Healthy, I AM Fit, I AM Confident, I AM Worthy, I AM Enough, I AM Secure and I AM Safe. My Passions create an endless and abundant flow of income. I AM One with the Universe”
• Have you taken a leap of Faith recently or looking at doing so? If so, please share, I would love to hear!
• What fears are you experiencing with it?
• Have you set any goals with taking your leap?
• What is your Mantra?