02/11/2026
I need to apologize to those who have followed me over the last decade or so as I have unintentionally misled you.
I had the best of intentions: I have always truly wanted to help others. But I was deceived and I deceived you in turn.
Many of you may know that my brother and business partner Jonathan (the Sage) passed away peacefully in his sleep in July 2025. It was very unexpected, at least for me.
In many ways, Jonathan was an anchor in my life. When I started noticing the spiritual realm, he was my guide and support. It was a very scary time for me as I could sense things, but could not see them. He was much farther into his spuritual journey than I was, and he had the knowledge and experience to guide me and reduce my fear.
Despite seeing him as my mentor in many ways, we ended up taking very different paths towards the end of his life. We lost touch and weren't connecting nearly as often. I found out after he passed that he had never stopped searching or believing his Christian faith.
In our last conversation the Sunday before he passed, I was excitedly telling him about a new "guide" that had revealed himself to me and how I was looking forward working with him. Jonathan's response shocked me. To paraphrase: "You're still doing that, even though we know information can be tainted?! I believe that Jesus is the only Way, Truth, and Life and no one gets into heaven without Him."
That was July 6, 2025. It rocked my world, especially because I saw Jonathan as the reason I got into any "New Age" stuff to begin with. We made plans to reconnect and promised eachother to make a bigger effort to chat more often. I had so many questions, my head was swimming!!! Unfortunately, Jonathan passed away before we got another chance to talk.
Since then, I've been on a wild search, trying to find the Truth. While I was raised in the United Church and then spent time as a teenager in a Pentecostal Evangelical church and then in an Anglican church as a young adult, I had walked away from the faith in my mid 20's after some bad influences.
I decided that religion was a crutch for weak people and I didn't need it. I also thought myself a better person because I "did the right thing" without expecting the reward of eternal life in Heaven.
Around this time, Jonathan was attending a church that basically told him he was not "special enough" to experience gifts of the Spirit, like prophecy, sight or words of wisdom. That the spiritual warfare he was doing on behalf of others was not from God. But, he knew what he had experienced. Eventually he left that church and continued his studies on his own.
His searching led us to taking a Healing Touch class together over a weekend in 2013 and he was in his element - the instructor could "see" the way Jonathan saw energy and he became very interested. I wasn't so sure, but kept going to these classes to be a "good big sister" and to support him. By 2017, I was pregnant with my first child, going through Healing Touch level 4 apprenticeship and trying to create a "soul-led" business so that I could stay home with my son. Spoiler alert: despite my "guides" contiously telling me that I would be able to leave my job and support my family with my business in 6-24 months, in 2026, I can confirm that this never did happen...
After I completed my Healing Touch training and became a practitioner, I kept searching. I could see the energy work helping others, but it never really helped me. I still struggled with depression daily this whole time, and for many years the depression was debilitating. I went on to get training in Access Bars, Integrated Energy Therapy, Reiki, Colour Therapy and Sound Therapy. I called myself a spiritual mentor and healer, but despite well over a decade of training (and tens of thousands of dollars for classes and mentors), I couldn't heal myself and was more depressed than ever.
This is where I found myself when Jonathan made that life-changing statement. Over the last 7 months or so, I have been researching nearly non-stop, trying to find the Truth and make sense of what I have experienced.
It would be impossible for me to list every small step I've taken since Jonathan passed away to map my journey from New Age to Christianity. It started with getting a bible from the thrift store and reading the new testament. Then watching countless YouTube videos and documentaries daily hoping to find something that would make sense of it all.
I happened upon a podcast called A Stronger Faith in which each episode is an interview with someone that has experienced God. Many of these experiences led the guests from New Age to Christianity, and they are incredibly powerful. One of the guests; Beatty Carmichael, spoke of a biblically based method he had been led into that had incredible results including instantaneous and miraculous healing. He wrote a book called The Prayer of Freedom and you'd better believe that book was added to my Amazon cart the same day I watched that episode.
Going through the Prayer of Freedom led me through repentance and deliverance: both much larger topics than could be covered in this post. The amazing result is that God used this book to heal my depression. The debilitating condition that led to decades of suicidal thoughts and that stole so much of my life, just gone. It's been months since I've felt the symptoms of depression, and I'm now working with my doctor to safely cease medications for it. This is something I never imagined could be possible.
I have seen many other positive changes in my and my family's lives since this change, but the freedom from depression is the biggest change so far.
I spent so much of my life trying to take control by doing the right meditations, eating the right foods, buying the right crystals, taking all the classes, connecting with the right guides, and so much more. Everything relied on my effort, and it was exhausting.
It can be hard to release the perceived control we have in our lives, but I can testify that the rest and peace I've found in Jesus Christ truly does go beyond all understanding.
There is more to the story, but this is already long enough! (Props to you if you've made it this far.) I am happy to chat with anyone, please reach out to me. (I promise not to preach at you or be condescending!)
May the LORD bless you and keep you;
May the LORD make his face to shine upon you and be gracious to you;
May the LORD lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace.
