04/01/2021
Mourning for what was doesn't mean you don't appreciate what you have now.
I was building a business last year. Covid closed her before she even had a chance to open. She closed before we were able to be a safe space and a welcoming light to people who needed it. We were going to do things differently.
I was so happy. I was so excited. I was so proud.
I started prepping my taxes for this year, and I was writing out all the classes I taught since lockdown, and couldn't help but compare it to the months before. Wow
Overnight I went from teaching 20+ classes a week in studios with every moment outside of that doing financials, meeting with city planners, realtors, property management companies, banks, and designers to none of it.. all of a sudden.
Heck, when we were in Rome in September I did a conference call with small business advisors & financial planners in the middle of the night because it was my new life and I was excited.
Now, I havent stepped into a yoga studio physically since March 13, 2020.
I know that we are very lucky and that the universe had my back because we were able to walk away but I did spend a few months mourning what could have been last year.
Yesterday, organizing my finances for 2020 that all came back up - so, I let myself have a good cry.
For those of you whove asked, maybe one day I'll open a studio but its no longer "in the plan". We've got other businesses to start for now β
Its okay to mourn for your precovid life. It doesn't mean you're any less grateful or happy now. It just means you're also sad for what could have been.
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