18/02/2026
When we commit to a healing journey, that healing ripples out to our loved ones and those around us, sending healing back seven generations and forwards seven generations. ❤️
Over the last few weeks a beautiful healing has taken place within my relationship with my eldest child.
I was 17 when he was born, didn’t have the best relationship with his dad and he was diagnosed with Autism spectrum disorder when he was 15. It was tough!
Recently I’ve had a lot of memories, emotions and regrets coming up for all the times I feel I didn’t make the best choices and wasn’t the best mum I could have been to him. I have carried an immense guilt for the way that I have been able to be a better mum to my youngest than I was to him at that age.
When these kind of memories and feelings start to arise it’s usually because we are ready and have capacity to process and heal them. So each time an uncomfortable memory or feeling has come up over these past weeks, I have acknowledged them, sat with them, I haven’t pushed them away and I have made the choice to forgive myself, sending love to that past version of me who was doing the best she could as a young single mum struggling to process her own trauma.
And then the alchemy of it manifested when my son came for a walk with me (which hardly ever happens as he prefers to stay at home in his safe space) and we had the best conversation we’ve had in years, and organically I found the opportunity to express to him the regrets I’ve had and the guilt I’ve carried and I told him I’m sorry! His response was that it wasn’t all that bad and I was remembering things worse than what they really were, and we laughed and we joked and we connected and with that I felt I was able to really let it all go! 😌🙌🏼🕊️
Forgiving ourselves is often the hardest thing to do, but when we can accept responsibility for the mistakes we’ve made, truly forgive ourselves for those mistakes, and show ourselves the love and compassion that we can often readily afford others, that’s when real deep healing takes place! ❤️🩹
What do you need to forgive yourself for?
