02/10/2025
Inner Child Moonlight Reflections ~
In spring, as I watched my mother in her shiny casket adorned in a grand bouquet of yellow roses, be lowered into the deep earth, I have been noticing myself calling out for my connection with deep earth too, as no longer, I feel, am I child, fearfully bound to a mother trapped by her trauma and medicated, I have been feeling the release…liberation for both of us, and as such, I have been feeling myself becoming mother…to my little inner self...and patiently and solemnly and apologetically finding new ways to relate with my body and to Her, who is infinitely forgiving and wide eyed...waiting...wondering…watching…how will she be cared for this time? The way she always needed?
And how does this feel Inside my body? Deep care? It makes me wonder about safety like I’ve never wondered before. As I sing and I sit and I sway and I trust in my ability to sink in, to this newly liberated & broken feeling body of mine, ouch sometimes it hurts I know. Its going to take some time... consistency I have heard, is key, as she is re-learning there is a more peaceful way of living, now you can let go of the OLD PROGRAM and Belief of needing to rescue sick mother and fight all of life’s challenges and rescue all of life’s pain bodies, so you wouldn’t get sick like her… ironically, the behaviors of avoidance your system has intelligently created to protect you, have indeed led to sickness in your body too, yes, however, it's okay, you will be okay, all you need to do now is focus on this little inner you, and start believing that this is a good thing and it is an okay thing too, it is socially acceptable thing to finally… just…chill the funk out, yes... compared to the trauma storms you once lived through together, you and your mother.
We are learning more and more of the importance of creating a safe environment guided by the needs of our inner child, so the nervous system can fully relax, allowing the body to marinate in organized, harmonized energetics where it can get to work at healing itself where is most needed, and can begin functioning optimally. Some of these conditions for a safe environment are: letting the body express energy how it wants to express, creating new, strong, firm boundaries that prioritize our health, protect peace and allow in, only connections that feel like home and where true love and trust has been built through rigorous testing, yes. and of course, in the nature walks with our beautiful canine companion and creating beautiful safe, sacred, sanctuaries that she can play and create in.
AND THIS IS OUR NEW PROGRAM:
‘’I let go of seeking challenge as a way to prove to myself that I can survive, and I call in Peace, as The new nutritional and beneficial way to allow myself to Thrive, I learn how to recognize and magnetize this good vibration in me and allow myself to engage in these peaceful feelings more and more, cultivating them throughout every area of my life, in my home, in my work and with all my relations, it is possible, I am worthy of a gloriously grounded, sumptuously succulent, peaceful existence with this earth, and so, it is done.’’
you may have passed, dear mother, but together, we continue to heal, I accept even more of this mission and I tell the tale, of how we heal together, your spirit as my shield and my body as sword, and we share our victories with the world
