06/02/2026
How did I get here…!?
Here’s a little bit of my origin story!
My last real job I worked for a bank call centre starting on 20k a year with lots of benefits…
I lasted a year and spend almost half of that off sick!
I sheepishly turned up at my Drs and “put on” being anxious and stressed “so I could get some time off”- or so I thought at the time, so convincing was my delusion.
I thought I was feigning being anxious, yet I WAS, in-fact, unable to go to work— due to being physically and mentally paralysed by overwhelming fear!
So at 35 I had to quickly come to the realisation that actually- I had been suffering from anxiety all my life!
I had just called it planning ahead. Planing ahead, however, had always been more like planning for disaster.
This was different tho- it wasn’t some catastrophe in my head that was driving my anxiety now, everything I was anxious about was in-fact happening!
-Constant criticism
-Missed targets that felt like impossible tasks
-Being quizzed about toilet breaks and how long I had been taking to get water, finish a call, or write up my notes…
It felt like being a prisoner for pay— and my nervous system knew it, even if I didn’t, yet!
It was during that time off- having been dragged down to the the falls of Clyde for some fun (which I strongly resisted— “if I’m not well enough to go to work then I’m not well enough to go out and play” —my mothers words rang loud in my ears) that I suddenly had a moment of clarity!
Not only did I momentarily forget I had ever been anxious and depressed at all, but I was actually actively enjoying myself!
It was an epiphany- there was nothing wrong with ME-
It was my life situation; my job, my flat, the feelings of isolation, the constant criticism, a complete lack of connection, fulfilment, and agency over my own life, and I had been ignoring it so long that my nervous system had decided that if I wasn’t going to listen then it would just take things into its own hands and sabotage me, to force me to change something…
But I had resisted- because the story in my head was that everyone else manages fine…
Everyone else goes to their job every day and does their work and doesn’t get crippled with anxiety at the mere thought of going…
And some of them might!
But lots of them are!
And many more- like me- are totally unaware that they are suffering the same thing— because they too have been gaslit into telling themselves that this life, this treatment, this feeling- all in the pursuit of a wage at the end of the month- is normal, that it’s all good, and that everyone else is managing fine- and we are ALL fooling ourselves…
But you can’t fool your nervous system! Not forever!
And one day your nervous system is going to let you know;
Whether it’s anxiety, panic attacks, sleepless nights, weight gain, weight loss, hair loss, low libido, low appetite, or just low enjoyment of life…
It’s not just your luck,
It’s not chance,
It’s not a roll of the dice…
It’s biology!
We as a species are suffering from an Evolutionary Mismatch;
We evolved to roam the savanna, hunting and gathering food under the sun— no phones, no traffic, no deadlines, no constant bombardment of bad news, and when the sun goes down— the only light and sounds should be the moon, stars- and crickets!
If that sounds like heaven to you- your nervous system agrees!
How did I cure my anxiety!?
I didn’t- I realised that the feelings I had weren’t a disorder or a disease!
I realised there wasn’t something wrong with me that needed fixed!
I realised that it wasn’t me or my anxiety that was wrong but rather the lies that I was telling myself that this life was “normal” and that everyone else was “managing” so I should be too- and that realisation is what lead me to start this business!
At The Entourage Effect we help people to get back in touch with themselves- their true selves- to reset from the stress and overstimulation of the modern world, and using therapies supplements, and superfoods, and our 6 Pillar Wellness System- helping to rebalance their lives and remember what is important to them, their health, happiness, and their nervous system!
It didn’t happen overnight- but it’s 8 years since I had that epiphany, and 4 since I started The Entourage Effect, we have already helped hundreds of people— and we are just getting started!
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