22/03/2026
Ikigai… your reason for being.
A Japanese concept meaning “reason for living” or “what makes life worth it.”
For me, that’s MAGI.
But PMDD?
PMDD can completely take me away from it.
Twice a month.
And if you’ve never experienced it, it’s hard to explain just how intense that shift is.
It’s like a temporary neurological blackout.
The version of me who is clear, driven, building, passionate… disappears.
In her place is exhaustion, overwhelm, anger, and this heavy feeling of “what’s the point?”
And that’s the bit people don’t talk about enough.
It’s not a mindset problem.
It’s not lack of motivation.
It’s biology.
So I’ve had to stop fighting it… and start working with it.
During that phase, ikigai doesn’t look like building, creating, or pushing forward.
It looks like this:
Lowering expectations
Letting go of guilt
Redefining purpose as getting through the day
Because surviving that phase is enough.
Your purpose hasn’t gone.
It’s paused.
I’ve started thinking of “micro-ikigai” instead.
Small things that bring even a tiny sense of comfort or grounding:
A quiet moment
A bath
Something that makes me laugh
Just being, without pressure
Not big purpose.
Just enough.
Practical things help too:
Having a PMDD care kit ready
Writing things down instead of holding it all in
Letting people know “I’m in that week”
And most importantly… remembering this:
The thoughts you have in that phase are not the truth.
They are a state.
Because when the fog lifts?
I’m back.
The vision is back.
MAGI is back.
And so is my ikigai.
So if you’re in it right now…
You haven’t lost your purpose.
You’re just in the part where your body needs you more than your ambition does.
And that counts too.
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ADHDWomen Perimenopause MAGI FounderLife MentalHealthMatters