06/06/2024
Moving to a new city in the dull miserable dark winter months was HARD.. I won’t even lie. Not to mention it’s always raining in Manchester 😅
I was going through some major personal shifts and trying to heal whilst battling between feeling like I’m not doing enough and giving myself time and grace to flow with the natural cycles.
Winter is a time for restoration, hibernation, a time to go inwards. Society conditions us to think it’s normal to work like clockwork all year round, through every season. But we weren’t built to work like that.
Anyone who knows me knows I’m usually very active, always doing things, usually very positive.. but what happens when you don’t feel like that any more? When you don’t have the energy to do much at all.. when you don’t feel so positive any more.. when all you want to do is rest and do very little.
HONOUR that. Society brainwashed us into thinking we should be constantly ‘doing’ but we’re human ‘beings’ not human ‘doings’.
It’s ok to just BE. To be still. To rest. To do very little. Just like nature, no flower blooms all year round.
As we come out of colder darker months I’ve felt a shift in me. My energy’s slowly returning, just like a flower blooming.. I feel new life coming through me. I feel more positivity coming back. I feel like I gave myself the time I needed. I went inwards, I dug deep, I spent the last 9 months doing a hell of a lot of self reflection. I feel like I’ve gone into the dark and come out into the light.
Learning to just be. Unlearning guilt for not being as productive as I usually am, unlearning social conditioning, removing the weight of what others may think, releasing the need to control things, releasing the weight of a toxic relationship and the impact it had on me. Allowing myself to cry. Lots. Allowing myself to grieve old versions of myself. It takes time. It takes patience. Nobody said life would be easy. But for anyone going through hard, dark times, remember the sun will always rise again, and you can too, it won’t be dark forever. There’s a reason for every season.. ❤️
