16/11/2025
It’s been a week! I function at my best when things are orderly; who doesn’t? A friend, who I don’t get to see very often these days, told me recently that I’m the most organised person she knows . . . A lot has changed since the days before motherhood when I carried a caseload instead of my heart outside my chest!
I’ve had to make further adjustments of late, time has been scarce, routine completely absent and energy levels low, so it was good to get to kettlebells, PT and Pilates this week and to have a 5 hour lunch date with one of my dearest friends yesterday ❤️
In between I’ve been packing up and procrastinating - a lot. Hubby said to me as I continued laying Jewellery on the floor ‘ Em, you said you have a lot to do, and you often say you get distracted . . . ‘ cue the realisation that it had been 2 hours, I’d not packed a single box but I had emptied 3 jewellery boxes and a cupboard full of photos 😩😭🤣
Despite poor management of my distractions, I’ve achieved a lot this week in the limited time available and whilst juggling demands. There is a lot of clearing taking place, in my home, in my nervous system, in my heart.
This I believe, is what this season is all about, slowing down, turning inward, lessening the noise and distraction. That is perhaps part of the reason this season is so often viewed as hard. We have to learn to sit with the shadows. If we are able to sit with it all, despite its discomfort and acknowledge, accept and love ourselves, even in the darkness, we can find, we are able to be more at peace.
It’s also in the darkness that we can enjoy the twinkly lights and candles, and in my case, finally enjoy having kitchen doors that are dressed 💙✨Just the ceiling to be painted now and then 2 years on the kitchen will finally be done. Never before have I procrastinated quite so much, been so unproductive or quite so arse about face in my methods but this seems to be what happens when I release my grip and go with the flow, and guess what, no one died!
So here I sit, in cosy candlelight, peaceful, content and ready for the week ahead - though I should probably get up and wash uniforms 🫣
