27/04/2022
When I was 18 I went to my first music festival, Reading 1994. I went with my best mate Simon, and a mate from work who was 12 years older than us, who was known only as Strange Pete. We camped for the whole weekend, and ate nothing but chips and mars bars π€£π€£
Strange Pete was a real mellow dude, he was a smoker and just went along with whatever. I looked up to Strange Pete, he wasn't really strange at all, he was a stoner and I dont think many other people at work 'got' him, hence the nickname.
On the Friday night one of my favourite groups at the time, Cypress Hill, were playing the mainstage. At this point in my life I had no idea who I was...and tended to just try and fit in anyway I could, social chameleon style. The crowd were going ape s**t for the music but I always felt awkward about letting go of myself. All I wanted to do was take it all in and enjoy it. Si was enjoying himself jumping all over the place and so I felt like I should probably do the same, feeling like a total wally because it wasn't really 'me' at all. I just felt so on edge, because I felt like if I just stood there watching, I would look out of place and people would think I'm wierd. I wasn't enjoying the show because I was so preoccupied with the nonsense of how I looked to a load of people I didn't even know!
Every time I noticed Strange Pete, he was just standing still, nodding his head and taking it all in. "Come on Pete, get into it" I said, coming from a place of pretty much total fakeness as I just wanted to be doing the same as him βΊοΈ. "I am into it mate!!!", was his reply.
When I look back on it with the eyes I have now, it seems really minor, but that stuck in my mind ever since. The fact Strange Pete was so OK with what he wanted to do, and gave ZERO f***s what anyone else thought taught me a decent lesson. Might seem small but to an insecure person every little thing you do matters...
I've told this story to plenty of clients over the years because it's surprising how many people have issues like this. It's funny how you think you're the only one who thinks a certain way and you really aren't at all!
Strange Pete, you the man βοΈβ