19/04/2026
Iâm going to say something most people in this space wonât.
You can be self-aware, emotionally intelligent, doing the work for YEARS & still end up in a relationship that triggers the hell out of you.
I literally help people understand & navigate toxic dynamics & Iâve still found myself in one.
So, awareness doesnât save you.
It doesnât switch off your nervous system. It doesnât stop you forming attachments. It doesnât make pain disappear. It just slowly changes how you move through it.
I donât lose myself the way I used to but I still feel it on an extremely deep & intense level.
(We can thank my Scorpio Moon for that đđœ )
But, I think people need to understand this more. Especially those, like me, who have only ever had negative relationship experiences so feel slightly avoidant of starting new onesâŠ
But listen, you donât heal in isolation.
You can better understand yourself alone, but you truly meet your wounds in relationships.
Thatâs where everything gets exposed. Youâre forced into a state youâre programmed to avoid.
Vulnerability.
So if youâre in something right now thinking,
âWhy am I here again?â, youâre not broken. All this work hast been for nothing. Youâre just being shown something you couldnât access on your own.
Healing isnât clean, itâs not aesthetic & it definitely isnât linear. Itâs messy, confronting & mostly painful as f**k.
But itâs real.