15/03/2026
Life has been looking different just recently.
Making way for the only thing that is certain…change!
I have to have surgery. It’s big. Life altering.
We’re moving house.
I started a new job in December.
I’m writing creatively less than ever.
Assignments roll around faster than I could have imagined.
I’m needing more sleep than ever.
I’ve not been all that happy. In fact, panic is rising through my body which; in this intensity, is a first for me.
I have been forced to stop by my body in the most inconvenient ways.
My days are being hollowed. I’m being hollowed. I’m being realigned, once more, to the thrum of the earths pulse.
Tomorrow I vow to you, therefore holding myself accountable, to get my bare feet into the earth. My hands into the soil.
What do I come back to over and over? The story of the Chinese Farmer.
‘Maybe yes, maybe no’, has become my affirmation.
There’s glimmers of ease but mostly there’s fear. There’s a thread of the joys of the next chapter but mostly there’s pain and grief and sadness. There’s moments of the purest connection but the fight to stay is hard.
Please pray with me for love to remain, to expand and for the flourishing to be oh, so beautiful, in its own time.
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