03/12/2017
Interlude
It has been a difficult number of months recently, only when I gave my feelings the light of day could I see with great and deep gratitude what they had been trying to teach me. “Whatever you think it is, it ain’t”, wise words passed along to me and I am grateful to have met she who spoke them.
Not to say that it’s all sunshine and roses from here on out; the darkness and the thorns hold the greatest lessons. There is an unwinding however, and once again thanks must go to the hand that had hurt the most. In searching the darkness, I had to remember to also accept all aspects of the light.
I have wanted to understand the Medicine Wheel, and now am beginning to appreciate its medicine on a deeper level than I could have imagined. And to be in awe of it. Perhaps this new discovery, or rememberance, of how to offset a painful experience and to nurture the growth of this response helped me to realise just how hard I had found it to accept.
It turns out that listening to and observing my body has once again provided the key; as opposed to thinking myself back into a bad experience. She is wise this body. And now I feel more confident in how I choose to allow my own emotions and responses to play out. Having invited forgiveness to no avail, I then became ready to receive it, just in time before it rushed toward me.
Blessed with more trusted intuition and a dream journal, feelings have begun to accept breath where I had allowed breath to be shallow. The dissolution of anger in the face of understanding.
“Lift a stone and you will find me”, this time my stone was blame.
Bring
Light
Around
Malicious
Energies
And welcome in a new perspective.
