27/10/2018
During our emptying out, deep listening session, my daughter said yesterday that her boyfriend is the only one who stood by her and gave her unconditional love during her depressive times and my immediate reaction was, "but obvious you will feel so for him because you are at your best with him, you show your worst to me and your brother." My consciousness immediately took me down the memory lane....there was an 'AHA' moment, I too had repeated the patterns of my female lineage in my marital home because I never expressed my feelings to my folks, whatever came my way, the good, the bad and ugly had to be taken without questioning.
Daughters are closest to their mother and they walk their talk and I was doing just what came naturally to me from my ancestors, my lineage, my genetic coding, I was in the denial mode till my past started resurfacing from subconsciousness to consciousness. That happened once I started giving a listening ear to my daughter and I said to myself, "let her empty out, let her leave her garbage with me (I further give back what I don't want to my ancestors) and take only light from me to her marital home. Let her know my negativities, for her to work out, that which did not work for me." ❤️