04/30/2026
Aries stellium New Moon into Ta**us season, then straight into Uranus entering Gemini… my entire being has been in a Vitamix-level blender for the last two weeks.
I have so much to do, yet I can barely do the bare minimum. On most days I am sitting in front of my computer feeling like my is on fire, not capable of sitting still for one reason or another. I know what I want to do and what I need to do — but the sheer amount of too-muchness, the continuous filling up without a way to let it move through me, was taking me down. Literally.
At some point I surrendered. Bed. Sleeping on and off. Cursing my misery of sensitivity and the world that is simply too much.
I have these days too.
And funny thing is — I always know this to be true, so why do I still struggle through it when it comes over me is beyond me, my ego is pretty solid mind you — these are the moments of discoveries and connections.
This piece was born out of sitting in front of the computer in vain, laying in bed cursing and sleeping, arguing with my friends and losing my s**t.
Being human, messy and spiritual, is often like this one. Immense gratitudes to all of my life collaborators, going through conversations and other moments to connections with me. You know who you are, and I love and appreciate you deeply.
The full essay is on Substack — link in bio.
And if this conversation is lighting something up in you, come find us in June. Sacred Erotic Reclamation is exactly this kind of work — the messy, embodied, real kind.
and I will be there.
🔗 link in bio
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