11/09/2023
Hi. It’s been more than a minute since I posted. A few people reached out to me to ask for any updates (thank you) which prompted me to sit down and try and to gather my thoughts.
Firstly, I am ok. My numbers are still holding as of my last check-in, which are now 3 months apart (my next one is in early October). Basically, I am just hanging out waiting for a living donor. As a reminder, I am on a deceased donor list, but I am about 6 months into that 5-year long waitlist and a deceased donor kidney is not nearly as good. I guess beggars can’t be choosers, but here I am anyway…
It's been a little over a year now since I created this account and first posted. A year of tests, trying different medication combinations, anemia shots, and blood draws – so many blood draws. The first 6 months truly felt like chaos. I didn’t know what was happening. I felt betrayed by my body. Everything was in flux, and I had so many internal rationalizations trying to get to a point where I would be strong enough and brave enough if I had to go on dialysis. I looked up the numbers, trying to make sense of what was happening and what I would do. But it didn’t help. No one I knew personally was dealing with this. It was just me and I felt so alone. I was scared.
We all know we are not going to live forever but when you find out that you could have checked out at any moment… it makes you examine your life. Your choices. It makes you live in the moment. It makes you feel the sun on your face and hear the wind in the trees. You let go of regrets. You plan that trip you keep putting off. It makes you forget all the stupid, small, petty things and focus on who and what really matters.
And those 6 months passed, and things evened out. I was still scared but I was also hopeful. We figured out my meds and my numbers have held for the next 6 months. And I wait for a kidney.
In 2022, a total of 25,499 kidney transplants were completed in the United States. As of February 2023, 88,658 people were on the waiting list for a kidney transplant in the United States. (source: NIH) I am one of those 88,658 people. I have no idea who any of the rest of them are, but I can tell you that all 88,658 desperately want to be in the stat about the completed kidney transplants instead. And we are scared. And hopeful. And we wait.
NIH Source link: https://www.niddk.nih.gov/health-information/health-statistics/kidney-disease #:~:text=Nearly%20808%2C000%20people%20in%20the,31%25%20with%20a%20kidney%20transplant.
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