12/06/2023
“Adult life means suffering alone”
I have friends. Lots of friends. I have people who cares about me and will let me vent anything at anytime.
But I choose to suffer alone.
Because? I feel so bad to say something bad about someone I love.
I love some people so much that it leaves me a lot of pain when they hurt me. It’s more painful than other people’s doing. And when that happens, I don’t know how to vent or explain it to someone else. Because when I’m in pain, I feel so exhausted to talk or think about things. And the most crucial thing is I feel bad venting about someone I love or venting to someone I love.
It’s very complex emotions that even though they are hurting me, I was afraid to ruin their social image or their reputations. And I hate to vent to people I love too because I know it drains their energy when they feel sorry for me.
“So I always choose to suffer in silence when someone I love hurts me.”
