02/12/2025
THE DREAM THAT WON’T LET ME REST: Roze’s Final Message
I keep dreaming about Roze.
She comes to me while I’m flying over rooftops, moving fast, and suddenly there she is - smiling, urgent, asking me to do something I’ve been avoiding because it hurts too much.
“Share my story, CEO. (We called each other this acronym- meaning (CREATIVE, EVOLVE, OPTIMISTIC) Make it mean something.”
Roze passed away suddenly.
She couldn’t breathe. Her body, after years of whispering warnings she ignored, finally gave up.
But before she left, there were three moments where everything could have changed.
𝐌𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝟏: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 (𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐞)
Roze called me crying. She’d been so excited to join my workout at Botanic Garden - already dressed, ready to go - but she couldn’t get out of bed.
“I vomited all night. My head… I can’t stand up.”
“Did you tell your employer?” I asked.
“No. She doesn’t like problems. I can handle it.”
I offered to speak to her employer for her.
She refused. She said it was just vertigo, just hormones, just stress.
It happened multiple times that year.
She chose silence over help.
For a while, yoga seemed to heal her. Six months of relief.
She even taught yoga to others. But the symptoms came back - and still, she didn’t see a doctor.
𝐌𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝟐: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐅𝐓 (𝐁𝐚𝐡𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧)
Roze moved to Bahrain with a kind, supportive employer who valued her work. But something changed.
Every conversation became the same three sentences, repeated more than 100 times:
“𝐈’𝐦 𝐬𝐨 𝐭𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐝. 𝐈’𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲. 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐜𝐤 𝐭𝐨 𝐒𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐞.”
She was bullied for her body. Despite doing yoga daily, people said: “You’re still chubby. You have a big belly.”
And she shared with me how the people around her were affecting her.
She couldn’t handle the negativity anymore, so she chose to move to Bahrain, even though her heart was heavy.
I brought in mentors - hypnotherapy, coaching, three-hour sessions on her days off.
She would listen, agree, promise to take action… and then do nothing.
That’s when I realized the truth:
When your body is tired, when your mind is tired, when your soul is tired - no wisdom can pe*****te.
You’re in survival mode. Nothing goes in.
𝐌𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝟑: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐏𝐒𝐄 (𝐁𝐚𝐡𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧 - 𝐈𝐂𝐔)
Roze started collapsing.
Multiple blood transfusions. ICU stays. I video-called her once - her lips cracked, dry, bloody. Her face pale as paper.
She told me she had a chronic blood disease. Inherited. Something her body had been screaming about for years through vertigo, headaches, exhaustion, weight struggles.
Finally, she went home to the Philippines. We talked about starting a business. She was excited, making plans.
And then she was gone.
Her body couldn’t breathe anymore.
𝐑𝐎𝐙𝐄’𝐬 𝐋𝐄𝐆𝐀𝐂𝐘: 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐒𝐇𝐄’𝐒 𝐀𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐄
Roze always wanted to write a book. She never did. But she came to me in dreams and said: “You write it for me.”
𝐒𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 - 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬:
1. YOUR BODY DOESN’T LIE
Roze’s vertigo, vomiting, headaches weren’t “just stress” or “just hormones.” They were her blood disease trying to get her attention. Don’t dismiss what your body is telling you.
2. SPEAK UP BEFORE IT’S TOO LATE
Especially if you’re a domestic helper, caregiver, or anyone afraid to “burden” others - your life is worth more than your fear. Most employers WILL help if you communicate clearly. Don’t assume they won’t listen.
3. YOU CAN’T THINK YOUR WAY OUT OF EXHAUSTION
When you’re depleted - body, mind, soul - no advice will work. Rest and medical help must come FIRST. Motivation without health is useless.
4. WORDS ARE WEAPONS
Roze was fighting an invisible battle while people criticized her body. Be kind. You never know what someone is carrying.
Note: Words have weight - Criticism can break someone who’s already struggling. We must think before we speak.
5. YOUR STORY CAN SAVE LIVES
Roze is gone, but through this story, she lives on.
If you’re reading this and ignoring your body’s warnings - this is your sign. Get help. Today.
Roze, this is for you….You wanted to touch lives. You wanted to write a book. You wanted your story to matter.
It does. And through everyone who reads this and chooses differently - you live on.
✅ If Roze’s story touched you, tell me in the comments: What’s one health warning you’ve been ignoring?
Let’s honor Rose by choosing life.
