30/11/2025
I woke up at 4am this morning with this feeling of calmness and peace. 🌅🫶
I know Ollie has probably arrived at North West Island by now — the sun rising🌅, the tide high, and that awesome stillness that comes with the early morning.
I can picture how magical it must look. 🌊🌞
They’ll be straight into it this morning… unloading the boat, breakfast, and setting up camp for the week. 🚤🏕️
What I’m realising is that the real training over these past few years has been for me.
Letting go and trusting
As a Type 1 diabetic mum, I’ve had to practice letting go… trusting that he knows what to do… and being okay with his levels not being “perfect” all the time. 💙🙏
I’ve been practicing for this a few years ago I headed to NZ for 2 weeks, Ollie was mainly in Makaela’s care.
The fear 😧and overwhelm I felt before I left were intense, and it took everything in me not to constantly check, remind, and hover.
There was even a stretch of four days on a retreat where I had no phone reception. That was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done — not knowing. 😣📵
But it also gave me confidence.
Nothing bad happened.
And I learnt that I don’t need to know every single detail 24/7 for him to be safe. 😇💫
Slowly, over time, I’ve learnt to let go. 🕊️
This time, a full week with no contact…
It’s still hard, but the fear and overwhelm weren’t anywhere near what they used to be. 🌤️
I love that Ollie is so fierce and determined to truly live his life — not from fear of what might happen, but from excitement, the fun, the joy, and the adventures. 🍉🤿✨
It really is true… like attracts like. ⚡💖
And I know this week is another big step for me in releasing my fears, especially with him having just one more year of high school left.
He’s such a free spirit, and I want him to have adventures — not to hold back because of what might happen and my fear.
One day, I know he’ll want to travel the world.
And weeks like this are part of my releasing, piece by piece, so my fears don’t become his. 🌍🕊️
Letting go is never easy…
And it’s even harder when your child has Type 1 diabetes.
But I’m learning.
And I’m proud of how far we’ve both come. 💙
All my love 💙