20/02/2026
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PERSONAL STORY POST
Bata pa lang ako, my mom always βbalancedβ me. βYung sobrang gusto niya ako maging realistic, lahat ng dreams and aspirations ko binabasag niya which made me experience a low to the point na ang baba ng self-esteem ko. Hindi niya ako sinuportahan ever because she was trying to βmanageβ my expectations, and though I understood what she wanted, napagod na ako na laging ilaban sa kaniya βyung sarili ko, to prove to her na hindi naman ako ganun ka-tanga, at maabot ko βyung dreams ko kahit na sa paraan ko at hindi sa paraan niya.
Living in a household where mediocrity is considered normal and hopes and dreams are delusional unless itβs understood by βmanyβ took a toll on me. Noong una, pinabayaan na nila ako because they thought Iβm hopeless kaya ko na-ipon βyung energy ko enough to build something I want with the help and foundation of my faith and belief. Pero habang tumatagal na I prove them wrong, parang mas nananaig βyung feeling nila na dapat mag fail ako kasi βlumalaki βyung uloβ ko kahit na ang ginagawa ko naman ay consistent sa kung anong ginagawa ko noong pinababayaan nila ako.
The point is, being realistic shouldnβt hinder you from dreaming and aspiring more. Being realistic and managing your expectations donβt define your faith and belief kasi those can co-exist at the same time. Knowing that 1+1 is equals 2 doesnβt invalidate that if you put 1 and 1 together it projects an 11. Minsan kasama sa realism βyung truths na sometimes reality doesnβt make any sense. It just happens, without further explanation.
Ang ending, Iβm delusional and I would like to stay this way. (My) Delusional meaning naniniwala ako na hindi ako pababayaan ng Universe no matter what happens, na the Universe wouldnβt want me to suffer, na as long as I wish nobody harm and just focus on my own path hindi ako makakaapak ng ibang tao, Iβll be fine. And ayoko na mabali iyon ng ibang tao just because they experience things differently sa kung ano ba ang nae-experience ko. Itβs not luck, itβs belief. We only get what we give. Itβs karma. Itβs reflection, itβs wisdom. And itβs me choosing myself.
I hope you choose your self too.