09/05/2025
Yes, there are beautiful and healthy, super active, and I would not go back to a life before they came to me.
Motherlove and guilt go hand in hand. So many times, I'm sitting on the sofa at night, starring to the wall and worried about what I did wrong when things escalated or/ and occurred unexpectedly.
Before I became a mother, I was the best mother on earth: super patient, loving, and extremely conscious.
We're surrounded by all that instagram videos about conscious parenting with all the wonderful messages about breaking our pattern and habits, doing home schooling, creating eco-villages, when the most of us is struggling creating the basic conditions for an dignified living.
The message is " make the difference, be the difference!"
Yeah, and sure, you have to pay to learn from them and to spend more time on the phone than be with your partner or kids, but whatever;)
Here, the challenge begins. Birth is an introduction to what motherhood will be on long-term: " Can you handle and enjoy the pain and joy of what comes along?"
And I believe that here is the secret. Accept it all. The good feelings, the struggle, and the pain that comes with it. Continuing to believe that everything will be fine on the end. Your kids will be friendly and functional humans at the end. Even if you repeat patterns from your parents that you judge as wrong.
