19/06/2024
For decades s💶❌⛎al pleasure was elusive. Early on I experienced turn on, and desire, but I had no boundaries, so trying to please and be liked, I opened myself up to assault and abuse. My earliest s💶❌⛎al experiences were violent.
After years I began choosing healthy partners, but as soon as I got into a long term relationship, my desire would vanish. I would often hear “why can’t you just be fun and se.❌/y like you used to be”.
It made me feel broken. The more they said it, the worse it got. I was ashamed. I could only feel turned on in highly unpredictable and risky situations. Safety caused shut down.
Fast forward many years of trying to fix myself through therapy, energy work, weird seminars, etc, working on childhood trauma, family s**t etc., I ran out of stuff to work on. EXCEPT s.💶❌ that is.
I finally decided to “go there”. With coaching, somatic therapy , ta**ra, meditation, and sheer pigheadedness to get to the bottom of it, I begun putting up boundaries, so I could feel safe and relax during s💶❌. My body begun to purge s💶❌⛎al trauma, and I started to feel sensations again.
I learned that in MY nervous system s./💶❌ was coupled with violence, because those were my earliest adult experiences, and once I could finally separate them, I was able to experience s💶❌, pleasure and org.a❌🐍ms in safety and connection.
It wasn’t quick. It wasn’t easy. But I consider this to be the most important work I have ever done.
I only have one regret. That this work didn’t find me sooner. That this was such a long and winding path. Which is why I don’t want you to waste any more time.
If you are craving feeling s💶❌⛎ally powerful, and fulfilled, having ready access to pleasure, orga.xsms, boundaries, communication, heal your trauma, and find that secret superpower that makes “them” wonder “what is it about her, she is magnetic” DM me READY, and i will send you the details or Er**ik Awakening, my 4 week 1:1 program to light the fire under your bliss.
