23/01/2026
This morning — in that liminal space between sleep and waking — something shifted.
I wasn’t fully asleep.
I wasn’t fully awake.
And I wasn’t stressed.
Without moving, my body was practicing yoga.
It felt vivid, almost trance-like — not chaotic, but unmistakably real.
I could feel every breath, every extension, every flexion, every familiar rhythm of practice.
Surya Namaskar. Padangusthasana. Padahastasana.
The steadiness of Ashtanga moving through me — somatically, not physically.
After a sudden knee injury — a moment of shock where trust in my body was abruptly interrupted — I’ve felt real fear around movement. And instead of pushing my way back, something else happened.
In this early-morning, in-between state, my nervous system found its own way.
Rehearsing movement.
Rebuilding trust.
Remembering strength and stability — without risk, without effort.
In polyvagal work, Deb Dana speaks about how imagining a familiar, rhythmic movement — even something as simple as a Sun Salutation — can help the nervous system return to a sense of safety. Stephen Porges reminds us that the body doesn’t clearly distinguish between vividly imagined experience and lived experience.
And suddenly — everything I’ve been teaching made sense in a new way.
This is meditation.
This is practice becoming embodied.
This is learning integrating so deeply that it happens before thought.
I’m not doing yoga right now.
I’m listening to it.
And this morning reminded me — the body knows exactly how to rebuild trust, when we let it.
