01/30/2026
Tomorrow is day 200/200.
And my building phase is definitely not ending the way that I hoped.
In my mind I was going to crush this last week and go into February feeling strong as hell.
But that was in my mind and this is real life, and as luck would have it, I got sick this past week.
I couldn't work out. (Still can't due to coughing)
I couldn't eat. (Slowly coming around)
And because of that, I lost several lbs this week.
Now, there's a past version of me that would have thought, "Oh well! That's a great jump start on losing the fat," and moved right into losing more, but that was the type of thinking that lead to a really unhealthy relationship with food, exercise and my body.
So, instead of moving into my next phase of a mini cut (fat loss), I've made the decision to get back to maintenance for a bit before I move on to make sure I do this in a healthy way.
And truthfully, that's what a lot of this phase has been about.
Yes, I wanted to build muscle...
But I also wanted to prove to myself that I could this...
That I could allow myself to grow in ways that at one point I wouldn't have even considered doing.
So even though it didn't go exactly as planned...
I did the thing I said I was going to do...
And there is no better outcome than that.