05/10/2020
Six weeks ago our Coyote family welcomed a long awaited dream. Noelle gave birth to her third love and the world screamed to a halt. Mother’s Day is loaded and often complicated, and is made so much more loaded and complicated by a global pandemic, particularly in the delicate days around pregnancy and early postpartum. Today and every day we honor the big feelings. ⠀
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Please help us in welcoming Lolli, and honoring her brilliant, strong, solo-by-choice mama, Noelle. And if you’d like to donate to their meal train visit the link in our bio. ⠀
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“Your entrance earthside was YEARS in the making. You were a wish on a star and a hope in the heaviest heart before you were nestled and clinging in the womb. I knew you were out there, waiting. I could feel your sweet spirit dancing in the periphery. ⠀
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Carrying you with me was as easy as a summer breeze - feeling you grow and roll and tumble inside was such a gift after so many tries, so many misses, and the sting of a loss. ⠀
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Nearing the end, the world shifted. Panic and fear - things i am very used to since your sister came - swept the whole world. We shut our doors. Put masks on our faces. Backed 6 feet away from everyone we loved. Hid. ⠀
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Doubt and worry crept through the crevices of my once-tight-fitting armor. Gaps formed on either side where my belly, where you, had grown. I could feel the fear of the unknown snaking around us. I’m so sorry. ⠀
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The light and lovely birth and postpartum that I had so meticulously and thoughtfully planned for was suddenly yanked from beneath us and i struggled to find the calm. ⠀
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Then, in the middle of the night on a Thursday in the thirty-ninth week and on the 5th day of that week- just like your brother and sister before you - you were ready. My water, your water, opened and gushed out like a clear, sweet river. ⠀
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Hours later, a whole BIG, long, sweet story - with a few very scary and raw and real moments- later (a story i will share soon) - you were here. ⠀
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And you were HERE. You let me know before I even reached down and grabbed you that you were here and you were strong and you were okay. ⠀
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Thank you for showing up in this strange and scary new world, Lolli Faye