01/01/2026
All of these things.
Looking back is s something I have been reluctant to do over the years. Looking back was painful and not fun. More trouble than it was worth, but the easier of two options.
The first option I could choose was to let what I knew to be true as far life experiences be as good as it was ever going to get. I was realizing I had been lied to for my entire life about what a healthy family was supposed to be. I was easily confused about what was love and what was cruelty. Uh oh. That’s not good.
I had a lot of unlearning to do.
That’s right where a little magic happened. It’s not a bad thing to not know EXACTLY what you want from life if you don’t know what it is. How could I have known how happy my days could be if I hadn’t explored the limits of happiness yet? Up to a certain point, I had explored many of the unhappy depths, but didn’t even have my head tilted up to see the skyline, the happiness horizon. The sky was the limit, but I hadn’t even found the sky yet.
I needed to fly free. That was the harder second choice, because falling feels like flying for a little while.
Some years have passed in these photos. The moves took a tremendous toll, healing or growing was very slow going. But I had made myself a secret promise every year. My New Year’s resolution was going to be to find a way to have a happy, healthy and positive life. Come hell and high water.
This last year has been filled with the exploration of happiness heights, look at all these glowing things. Piece by piece, or more like feather by feather, we’ve been building these wings. Wings that beat the air to get off of the ground, the hardest part, into the sky. Finally!
We are going for a ride! Well, we’ve been on this ride for a really long time, but looking at this last year we’ve really begun cooking with gas. Look at that happiness horizon!
Even though there have been some intense and confusing headwinds coming from external forces like the metals market, the addition of 8 small paws has upped our inertia just enough to maintain our course.
Straight on through midnight, ready to meet the dawn.
Sianara 25. See you out there 26 🫡