06/06/2021
Posted • Going from one (very independent and almost full grown child) to two has truly done a number on my life. I think i developed amnesia after my first, because there’s so many things i don’t remember, like how much work it entails to having an infant and caring for them. Funny thing is, when i had my daughter, up until about 1 1/2, i nannied two other kids at the same time and i remember doing it so effortlessly, or so i remember? I was also very much younger and i didn’t have a full time corporate job and was living with my mom, so that also made things easier!
I feel like now, the woman I was before I became a mother for the second time, is someone I am familiar with, but i can’t hardly remember her, if that even makes sense.
I’ve been so deep in the trenches of motherhood from taking care of an infant, to taking care of a teenager that’s going through it, if you have a teen, you know what i mean. The old me is somewhere hiding under piles
of laundry, worries about raising a teenager, hours of pumping, and all in the in between of motherhood.
Lately, I’ve been trying to put myself first or at least try to not act like i am superwoman and try to do it all. Some days i do really good at this, and some days, i fall off the wagon. Ultimately, what I’ve realized is that i am happier and feel better when i care for myself and therefore, i am a better mom and a better wife.
So, although it’s hard, my promise to myself is to TRY to always remember who i was before, to TRY to put myself first, at least sometimes, to TRY to do things for myself, because in the end, it makes me BETTER, STRONGER and because THE PERSON I WAS BEFORE STILL MATTERS.