02/02/2022
My journey to practice joyful movement that’s healthy for both my body and my mind is not a linear one. It requires a lot of inner work, personal conversations with myself. Check-ins, raw honesty.. and making mistakes sometimes, but choosing to learn from them and move forward.
What do I actually mean by that?
I mean that sometimes I’m not sure if I’m working out with kind intentions. It means I have to decode if me “not feeling like it” is me genuinely not feeling like it and needing to rest or actually a sign to push myself a little and do the hard thing anyway.
Because it’s a tiny, thin line that I’m still figuring out how to walk on with grace.
Because the truth is, sometimes my favorite movement sessions come from the times I didn’t feel like it before hand. I feel extra proud of myself, accomplished, and physically and mentally stronger from it. That’s the truth that a lot of people in this space don’t acknowledge out of fear it may seem “disordered” when the truth is actually: I’m an athlete. Always have been, always will be. And with that comes a deeply seeded love for pushing myself.
But sometimes, I do feel worse. I feel guilty. I feel like it’s me failing myself and giving into old habits.
At the end of the day, the message I want to leave you with is that this journey is not linear and it looks so different for everyone. The only person who knows what’s truly best for you is YOU and the beauty of this life we get to live is figuring out how to listen to and trust that voice in your head a little more everyday.
