21/07/2020
With so much uncertainty, I kind of feel like an astronaut in space, nothing is buckled down, everything is up in the air and I feel held in some strange orbit. Feel me? My normal feeling of being a little “lost” & “out of place” is on hyper-drive right now. The issue for me is that I’ve never been a follower and I’m not really interested in being a leader - though I tend to find myself in that role. What I showed up to share here today is that I know for many of us we are waiting for the ground to fall out again... but maybe the truth is we’ve already blasted off into the next phase of reality. It’s been a good 5 months of altered reality (well maybe 3.5 years for some of us;-). And maybe you still need to rest, or get more clear, or like me, it’s time to face the resistance, perhaps some fear too, of moving forward and actually leaving the past behind. I’ve been feeling stuck in the global negativity recently and so I’m meeting the resistance of living a joyful & empowered life even when then are a lot of sh*tty things happening in it. What matters? What seeds of intention do you want to plant? What feelings and experiences do you want to contribute to? What do you want to cultivate, nurture, grow? These are important questions & actions. I’ve had to let a lot of my personal goals go recently in order to support my family and our yoga studio. I’ve had to rework everything I do for the studio and my immersion/training program and I’ve had to do it all while mothering in a whole new way too. I can’t stop doing all those things but there are places I can pull back and refocus. Meeting the resistance in the stuck places, breathing in to it, stepping back to get a bigger view, and then working through the maze of resistance with diligence & as much grace as I can muster. I’ve been very absent from my more personal vocation in order to focus on the studio and so I’m now making the commitment to be a little better at sharing my time with the multitude of things that matter to me. Being a force for conscious & healthy living, positive engagement, the cultivation of harmony, & staying rooted in the power of love are high.