11/08/2020
Cancer. Words I never thought I’d hear, but 2 weeks ago I did. Thyroid Cancer - papillary carcinoma to be exact.
Slow spreading, not aggressive, and very treatable. Still scary and unexpected and humbling.
I find the most comfort knowing that the God of the universe is not surprised by this. He wrote my days and prepared me specifically for these. Tangible evidence of those truths is everywhere - particularly as we searched for wisdom and care providers. And He’s built a support system around us that is unmatched and unwavering and leaves me teary with gratitude.
Now we pray it hasn’t spread, for wisdom as we make decisions about immediate and long term treatment, and for a smooth and uneventful thyroidectomy on Thursday.
I hope to share as much as I can as we walk through this. I pray that by sharing I will provide comfort to anyone who might walk through unexpected physical illness or help you to understand how you can best love someone in your life who will. Most importantly, I want to honor the Lord in it all. Whatever the next month or so brings, He is good and gracious and in control and I’ll point to Him in each victory and every challenge. His power is made perfect in my weakness so I’ll claim it with confidence.
And my husband - dang is he a gift. Perfectly walking the line between letting me feel deep grief and making me laugh, letting me say it sucks and reminding me that God is taking care of me, letting me pretend I can handle it all and pointing out things I should delegate to him or our people. He’s been steady and comforting and gentle and full of truth and I’m just so thankful.
Oh and Grace - she’s just over here cutting molars and wanting all the snuggles. I’ll count it as joy 😊