30/04/2019
YES to everything in this! If only I had appreciated my fast times and PRs. Tina Muir nails it here.
Have you ever thought to yourself, “if I could just run xx time, I would be happy” or finish in xx position, I would have made it.
We know running is relative. One persons fast is another’s slow. One persons never gonna happen is another persons I could do this for hours. And we are fine with that. We all have our own goals that we work towards.
Yet why is it that once we reach those goals, run a pace or time we once thought was impossible, we are still not able to celebrate, still not able to see it as good enough. We want MORE.
I have run 16:08 in the 5k, 33:24 in the 10k, 1:13 in the half marathon, 2:36 in the marathon, and have represented Great Britain and Northern Ireland in a world championship and European championship.
But even running those times, I struggled to celebrate them as they happened. The 5k, from someone who was once excited to break 18:30, when I ran my PB all I wanted was under 16. When I ran my 2:36 marathon, it was “only” a one minute PB, I wanted four minutes.
When I look back, I never truly celebrated my PBs as I ran them. I was always looking ahead to the next one as soon as I crossed the finish line.
It’s not a bad thing to keep striving for more and never be satisfied, as humans we are designed to do this for survival. Our brains are inherently negative.
But when you have worked SO HARD towards something for a long time and you finally do it, we need to STOP and take the time to soak in that moment. Yes, running one time means you are capable of more, but if you are not careful, you will waste the most incredible highs we get in life, by daydreaming about the next one. Now I look back on those times, the paces seem SO FAST, so far away, speeds I couldn’t imagine now. I just wish I had appreciated them more in the moment. Rather than looking at the girls in front of me, where I wanted to be, I glanced back to see where I had come from, a long way.
So whether it’s a one second personal best or a one hour. Next time you run faster than you ever have before, take a day, a week, a MONTH to just revel in it. That is what makes us feel most ALIVE, and that is not a moment to waste ❤️