09/03/2022
āAll I want is to go to the hospital and get drugs. I cannot go through that again.ā
I told my husband, crying after my third night of contractions and no sleep.
Saturday afternoon, I had started feeling crampy and contractions became regular at night when I tried to sleep.
They faded in the morning only to come back each night.
By Monday night, I was ready to get this over with so we went for a walk after dinner to move things along. Iād noticed they werenāt as strong if I watched TV so we played some rummikub.
Around midnight, I started timing my contractions. They were 60-90 seconds long and about 4 minutes apart. After an hour, I woke Jordan up and asked him to time me.
After another hour, we called our doula and midwife . Lexi was on her way to check me and we called for our birth pool.
I got up to p*e and caught the worst chill, my legs started shaking uncontrollably and my contractions became shorter and closer together.
When Lexi arrived, we timed a few and she told me I wasnāt in active labor yet. I couldnāt believe it after all that work, I knew I was right on the brink and felt so disappointed.
She told me to take some magnesium and get some rest. Of course I couldnāt sleep and contractions continued all morning.
I finally got out of bed and tried to nap on the couch. I knew I couldnāt make it through another night like that. When Jordan came downstairs, I started sobbing. I didnāt think the home birth I had planned was going to happen and I felt like a failure. All I wanted was to get pain meds and take a nap.
We had an appointment at our midwifeās office at 10 am and I lost my mucus plug right before we left. She did a non-stress-test for baby and a vaginal exam. Baby was fine and I was 6 cm dilated and 100% effaced!
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