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07/06/2023

A moment in time I’ll never forget , it’s hard when you lose your Best Friend and your mind in the same second. It’s even harder when you know that you had to keep going and not look bk like you used to do 😔 All you can do is wish the best for them , pray for both of you every chance you get, and know GOD has your situation and he’s in charge now , not you. 🧡🧡

07/06/2023

So … it’s been a couple of days since I’ve written on the book and I’m not writing for that this time . Just venting but I’m not going to be negative about anything . I’m going through a period of time in my life where I’m in some serious emotional pain and , I’m not exactly sure how to do this on my own but I’m learning a little bit more every day . I’m not going to point fingers or bad mouth anyone for the way I feel because truthfully , I’m the only one responsible for my own actions, mindset, and which emotions I let out to the world. I will say though , over these last 10 months I have grown from a girl and am continuing to blossom into a strong and beautiful woman who is not only proud of herself but who loves herself very much . That’s how I know this pain too shall pass and I’ll shine brighter than ever when it does , I just have to allow myself to feel what emotion God helps me decide on at any given moment. He’s always with me and I don’t worry if I can’t keep walking forward on my own , because when I’m tired or weak , he’ll pick me up and carry till I’m good again . 😊🧡🧡🧡

07/06/2023

Cause I bet my life you won’t find a woman who will do what I have , lived like I have , and put up with the bu****it I have for even a couple of days . The dick may be alright but it isn’t worth the s**t that comes with it !! 😝

07/06/2023

🥹🥹 , it’s not like I didn’t tell you about all of us from the beginning 🤣🤣🤣

06/29/2023

Ch.2 pg.4
OR, I was the one who you turned to the person next to you and, quietly so as not to offend me I guess , whisper “ That has to be the saddest girl I’ve ever seen in my life. I hope she’ll be ok !.” But I NEVER WOULD 😞.
As the years and life happened at what seemed a rapid pace , each pain that was inflicted was ALWAYS, a little bit worse than the last. I used to be the happiest girl in the world or at least I could fake it well enough to make you feel better when you were down. Then one day I just wasn’t! That’s when I began to forget about and leave myself behind as life still had to move forward. Even when I was happy , those who hung around frequently noticed that there was something about me that was different but they couldn’t quite put their finger on it….but I ABSOLUTELY knew I was odd and somewhat, mildly bk then , awkward but I just called myself UNIQUE bk then lol ……..

06/29/2023

Ch.2 pg.3

Now where were we , oh , discussing me lol . So , continuing on , you obviously can’t tell just by looking at me or even sometimes when you first meet me , but , I’m in an all day most times, everyday , battle with “Myself!”
You see , I have been diagnosed with , I’ll count them , 1. Severe Manic Depressive highs and Lows 2. Bipolar Disorder 3. Schizophrenia 4. (More Recently) not yet Pinpointed Different personality formation ( psychosis w/ amnesia to the point I only recognize 2 people in my life , Gabe and Shell, and Have NO CLUE of my own identity a the time) and formed and fueled by many past traumatic experiences , PTSD nightmares. Which I have to take 3 pills a night to prevent or my somewhat unmanageable Insomnia runs amuck and I end up deciding I need to take an extra sleeping pill which does nothing usually but raises my tolerance to the highest level which is “ JUST GIVE IT UP TONIGHT , TRY AGAIN TOMORROW! “ 🤣🤣 , FR though, you’ll hopefully have a better understanding of these as I’m going to try to be as informative and educational for you as possible. This , from MY point of view, I know it looks different from your eyes looking in from outside. Maybe you wouldn’t be so quick to pass judgment on others if you have a somewhat better understanding of what you can’t see!
So 1. Severe Manic Depression , I’ve always , since my first traumatized childhood experience at around 6 years old , either, would be the one over hiding in the corner with my nose in a book at a huge gathering somewhere . Wanting NOTHING to do with or wanting to engage with my “friends “ in any way. Or I was the absolute life of the party other times , like first one on that karaoke microphone walking around and including everyone in the room in my “performance “ , and trust me , it was NOTHING LESS than that . Picture AGT , home party edition 🤣🤣🤣🤣. I was either so happy you had no choice but to smile around me or…..

06/28/2023

Ch.2
First Impressions are supposedly , so “ Hello , Brandy , nice to meet you all 😊”. I’m recently 43yrs old and boy , by my own admission , let’s just say “I’m Something Else” as Gabe would say almost as frequently as he would pray with me lol . 😊😊
I’ll cut straight to it , I’m a VERY DIFFERENT THAN ANYONE YOU MAY HAVE EVER MET . I’m ok with that , but newly ok , took some work to understand and accept myself, but today, rt this minute, I Honestly Love Myself Very Much. I didn’t for many years and expected that I didn’t have to for anyone else too. I just had to put on a fake smile and no one would be able to ever tell the difference.
You’ll find throughout this book I’m the most contradictory person in the world but at the same time it does make sense in the end of you hear my reasoning , lol . I pretty much prefer NO one around me and I don’t engage in conversation with very many people. I can’t get into small talk , I’d rather find a quiet corner and read or write something. I’m an Absolute Poster child for A True Gemini Woman from my brains , yes there’s a “s” on that , lol to my Tiny but long toes 😁.
I live in a rather small , country town Named “ Kirbyville, Mo”. It’s a beautiful place with extremely nice people, unless you’re me then …. Well let’s just say, apparently we were both surprised by who other than , ME 😶.

06/28/2023

HERE WE GO

CH.2 - (Again for the most part in this chapter I’ll be putting the story on pause for the Purpose of Informing You as Best and as Thoroughly as possible about MY Specific Mental Health Issues . For the Most Part It Probably Is Stuff You Wouldn’t Really Notice Or Pick Up On Unless You’re Around Me for A Period of Time and Have Been Paying Attention )

06/27/2023

Ch.2 Intro - Going to use this chapter to help you to better understand how and What Mental Health Issues I Live with. What they mean for me, how I became aware of them and the irreparable impact they have come to have on the rest of my life and relationships with other human beings whether it’s family, friends, whatever. I’ll leave nothing out , I could care less about being judged by ANYONE on the Planet. So , I’ll start this on the following post, but may be a few. I’m a little exhausted from not sleeping well for about the last week or a little longer.

06/27/2023

Pg.3
So as the multiple conversations between the guys got a little bit louder and louder the more alcohol they consumed , (I’m not a drinker, Never have been) , the more I kinda just drew myself deeper into the corner of the couch behind me. Chillin under my little Cookie Monster blanket that I’d tote’s EVERYWHERE and Couldn’t sleep without day in and day out for the past almost 8 years then , I wanted to get lost in a song again 😁.
I was feeling pretty content with not joining their one-ups and stories from their pasts , again , their one-ups lol 😂, I knew it had to be one of my favorites! But not just anything , something that never failed to make me feel good , and have me singing to myself without regards to if anyone might hear me . I could sing and still do it quietly lol.
Didn’t take long to burst to the front of my mind what the first song I was going to play would be ! “What You Give “ !! I didn’t even realize anyone was listening or rather paying any attention to what I had going on. Then , only a couple of chords in , who else , HIM of course, speaks up over ALL the voices in the room and says “ Tesla ? That’s the First concert I Ever Went To! “ A little surprised but very impressed , they’re not exactly spring chickens on the music front anymore and he seemed like more of a “country-rap fan “ , but that was just my opinion lol . After that I became somewhat of the dj takin request going around the room so everyone got to enjoy in . Then about the third time around the room , definitely wasn’t his turn to pick but HE seemed to do whatever he wanted ANYWAY lol . ( Wasn’t actually a Bad thing then , seemed harmless and just a little cocky at that point).“ GODSMACK!” , “Under Your Scars” he said , “please 😊” ?
Who was I to tell him to wait , if you want to hear a song then you want to hear a song lol !
But , those lyrics had been written from what seemed by someone who had filleted me open to the core and perfectly , well , 😔🥹

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