01/27/2026
The body DOES keep the score...Give it the Love it needsâŁď¸
Tomorrow marks 9 years since the worst day of my life â the day my dad passed suddenly.đđ
That day, along with other traumatic things that happened right before and after, sent me into years of grief, anxiety, sadness, depression, and just plain pushing through the pain both physically and mentally.
I looked FINE on the outside but felt like such a mess inside and just not myself.
I was afraid to rest⌠and when I did, I became a depressed mess.
So I kept going.
I numbed out on the weekends as much as I could, and when the weekend ended it was pure ugh â I donât know how Iâm going to get through this week.
Yes, I talked about what I was going through.
Yes, I shared with others.
I wasnât bottling it up.
I cried. I worked out. I did all the things to try to stay afloat.
But nothing was working.
The anxiety and irritability wouldnât go away.
I couldnât sleep no matter what I tried.
I was completely drained.
The reason Iâm posting this is because when this date comes around, I donât even need to think about it. My body responds before my mind is even aware of what day it is.
Iâve learned to honor that now. To listen to what my body needs in that moment.
Sometimes that means slowing way down⌠being fully present with the pain⌠having a good cry⌠and then resting.
Our bodies are incredibly brilliant. It remembers things we donât.
It isn't trying to hurt us.
It isn't broken.
It's just asking for support.
Our bodies are constantly communicating with us â mentally and physically â but we have to stop pushing through and fighting it long enough to listen.
When I finally learned how my body works and how to truly support my nervous system, it started treating me much better.
It still sends reminders⌠but I listen now.
The point of this post is this:
These terrible moments teach us so much.
They shape us.
They help us grow stronger.
And one day, we even feel gratitude for what they taught us.
It may be your worst day right now â but it wonât be your forever.
You will come out of it changed⌠and often, a better version of yourself.
Yes, it still hurts deeply to live without âyour person.â
And yes, having your life turned upside down so suddenly is brutal.
But grief is simply love with nowhere to go.
Itâs proof of how much love existed â and how lucky you were to experience a love that deep.