11/19/2025
Escaping the Old Me 🌑🚗✨
Dream 💭
I’m back at my childhood home, rushing to get ready for school. I’m already late, and every part of me does not want to go. As soon as I step outside, a group of people comes toward me, trying to hold me captive. My heart drops.
Someone accidentally tosses my keys, and they land right at my feet. I grab them, jump into my little kiddie Jeep, and take off. It’s barely moving — creeping down the dark road — but I’m determined. I make it to the open field down the street and camouflage myself in the shadows.
They walk through the field searching… then stop when they find a man who’s been dead for two hours. They look around, then keep moving.
I stay hidden.
I don’t get caught.
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Message 🕊️
This dream felt like my younger self trying to show me something — the part of me that used to wake up already overwhelmed, already feeling behind, already carrying weight that wasn’t mine.
Going back to my childhood home is always a sign that I’m revisiting old wounds or old versions of myself. Being “late for school” is that pressure I grew up with — feeling unprepared, unsupported, or pushed into situations I didn’t feel ready for.
The people trying to hold me captive represent those old patterns, old fears, old environments that used to trap me emotionally. But the wild part? My keys were thrown right to me. My escape literally landed in my hands. That’s my spirit showing me:
I already have the tools to free myself.
Driving the kiddie Jeep — slow, small, but still moving — is me acknowledging that healing isn’t always fast. Sometimes it’s inching forward, little by little, even when it’s dark and scary. But I still made it out. I still found a safe place to hide and breathe.
And the part where they found someone else who had been “dead for two hours”?
That’s symbolic of the old version of me — the part that didn’t stand up for herself, didn’t fight back, didn’t know her power.
That version is gone.
And I wasn’t caught because I’m not meant to go back to who I was.
I’m not running from danger anymore — I’m running toward my freedom.
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